What is this bullshit? hmm....

I've been swimming in the sea for so long,
every time i try to reach up high,
high enough to stay at where i am.
But every time the storms that i cling to
are there to send mountainous waves,
that i have been blind to,
that rush down to crush me,
leaving me to continue swimming the dark waters.

And then i see you my friend.
The storms and waves have revealed to me
the glory in which you stand tall in,
as you walk on the dark waters
with unwavering confidence with your each step.

Try as i might to swim towards you,
to walk in your path,
where others must swim,
you do nothing but kick me aside.
The flashing image of a lion greets me
as i swim away from you my friend,
and towards my whirlpool.

But then a flash of a bolt of lightning
catches my attention,
and before me flew an albatross.
The magnificent bird i could see,
was white of unimaginable brilliance,
before it was stained from its past.
I followed the bird thus,
out of shear curiosity,
or was i so lost in the whirlpool,
that i would grab hold of anything?

I tried to stare hard at the bird,
so that i don't lose sight of it,
but through that which consumes me from within,
i dared a gaze to my surroundings,
and i saw the magnitudes
of those enthralled by the brilliant bird,
blinded to its true flight.

As i swam the dark sea with my epiphany,
wearily following the dark bird,
before me lay a rock,
which i had nearly crashed into and died.
I reached for the rock,
for i knew that it was a steady rock,
connected with the sea bed,
immovable in any way.

As i stood on the rock,
peering at the distance,
my sight cross the many different rocks,
until suddenly my eyes bring to me,
the image of my friend.
He swims towards me and on the rock,
i call out to him,
but he is confused,
lost in the dark waters as i once was.

As i continue my shouts and whispers,
he swims away from me,
chanting of how dark the clear sea is.
And then i realize,
my friend,
has always been swimming,
as i once was,
or am i still swimming?